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Tourette’s Syndrome?

Hello! My name is Megan  Jamie

Here is a blog to learn more about Tourette’s Syndrome (specifically my experience). Tourette’s is a neurological condition where a person has involuntary physical or vocal “tics” or symptoms such as shouting, screaming, jerking of the head, blinking, etc. It has to do with imbalanced brain chemicals. This is a safe place where you can ask questions that you would be too nervous (although you shouldn’t be) to ask me in person. All frequently asked questions will be in “menu”above where it says “FAQ”.  You can also e-mail me at Meganitup@hotmail.com or add me on facebook (search Megan Jamie) to ask me questions. Thank you everyone!

The menu above also has links to “Tics & Fitness” (where I talk about my exercise and nutrition journey) and “Tics & Art” (where I discuss about my artistic endeavors along with a business I’m running where I sell hand-made stickers and sell stationary!). Soon to come is “Tics & Speaking” where I share about my career as a motivational speaker! I’m not one yet, but definitely on the road to becoming a speaker. Just wait 😉

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A Cure for Wellness

My birthday was on June 29. But apparently, I was born again June 30th when visiting a hardcore Christian neighbor that day. This isn’t the first time and never will be the last. I let him pray for me because I know praying for someone is really kind and from the heart, but I also knew he was trying to convert me. Time and time again. Not just then. But he always has. He constantly speaks about Jesus. I’m there to listen. But the intent behind it just bugs me. Ever since he knew I had Tourette’s (which is the first time he met me) he does nothing but try to convert me. It’s sad really. To the eyes of the couple across the street from me, I have an illnesss, an ailment, a flaw that needs to be healed, that needs to be cured. . But you don’t see them trying to go heal the blind, or the deaf, or the amputated. Or maybe they do? I just think that’s silly. 

Why would they think Tourette’s is the same? Believe me I believe that my Tourette’s might get better over time, but through SCIENCE, hence the brain surgery. But a person with Tourette’s will always have Tourette’s no matter how improved their tics become.

Think about this for a moment, if I follow Jesus Christ JUST because I want to be healed is it really genuinely following him? Would I be following him wholeheartedly? Or is just for the possible results? If I follow a religion I’d rather do it because I WANT to and believe in him just because.

After praying for me he asked how I felt. I was the same. My normal twitchy self. 

The thing that boggles my mind is that I may move a lot and shout a lot, but I’m perfectly healthy. Are they curing my well being? Because I am perfectly fine. 

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Making Things Megan-Proof!

My husband and I came up with a brilliant idea! As you all may know (or not know) I break the LCD of my MacBook screen a lot because I throw my wireless mouse at the screen. Instead of constantly breaking the MacBook screen and paying 500 plus bucks to replace it I just use a cord that displays my MacBook screen onto a regular computer monitor which is cheaper to break. But it’s still annoying when I break the regular computer monitor too! So I tried looking for privacy filter screen that could protect my screen although it’s meant for privacy. You know, those filter screens that doesn’t show what you’re working on if someone were to look at the side of your computer monitor? But those costs 50-100 bucks for just plastic covering a computer monitor! So my husband and I decided to head to a hardware store and make a custom made acrylic sheet for my computer monitors! Brilliant! We measured the monitors and asked them to cut a sheet based on that measurement. And I just use tape or Velcro to place the acrylic sheet onto the computer monitor! It only costs us 17 bucks! Yay for solutions!

Also, many of you may know that as a tic I toss my phone against the wall. And for a while, to prevent that, I would place a blanket or comforter over my head while playing on my phone or doing work. The downside? I couldn’t breathe! 
So my husband bought me a privacy pop up tent for the queen sized bed. It’s basically a tent for the bed and I could zip it up. If I threw my phone against the wall it would only hit the tent. The only thing now is that I have to dodge the flying phone when it bounces back! 
Take that technology! 

Posted in Marriage


 I remember dating this one guy whom I really liked and can see myself being with for a long time, but before he broke up with me he asked, “why haven’t you considered brain surgery?” for my Tourettes and thats when I knew. He just wished I was normal. He liked me and my personality but the Tourettes bugged him. A lot. The question hurt me because no one should ever suggest that I get brain surgery when they know nothing about it – the risks, the complications, the emotional side of it all. Only my neurologist can do that. And only I, myself can make that decision or even have the nerve to bring it up.But thinking about on it it makes me appreciate my husband , Clifford Harmon even more. He’s never wanted me to change. He’s never wanted me to fit into society. He’s never wanted me to change for him. And when I did bring up the brain surgery it was me, myself who did it. And he supported me by watching videos of other people with tourettes who has done brain surgery and we both cried in each others arms watching the video. He’s helped me do the research, take me to my doctor appointments, used his money to fly me out to New York to see a neurosurgeon, promised he’d be with me if I turn into a vegetable which won’t happen by the way, and stayed by my side. Thank you Clifford Harmon for enjoying my madness and not forcing me to be normal. Your the panda to my grizzly

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More About Deep Brain Stimulation

main-dbsbrainThe idea of the surgery I had is to reroute my circuit. I find brain plasticity fascinating and how DBS surgery can potentially rewire the brain! Think of it this way, having Tourettes is like being on a freeway that goes in circles. Lets call it the Tourette’s circuit. You keep going round and round and round, ticcing, ticcing, ticcing. But DBS allows you to find a potential detour. That detour can potentially lead you to creating a new circuit so you can off the Tourette’s circuit. So it takes a while to see results when it comes to brain surgery. It doesnt happen over night. It happens over the course of a year or so sometimes.

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Discrimination in School


Remember, don’t ever compromise your rights and be persistent when fighting for your rights. The world is not going to hand you your rights on a silver plate (unfortunately), you often need to educate yourself and stand up for yourself.

I have a friend who is surprised by how many times per year I get discriminated on campus because of my severe Tourette’s. It happens! There literally hasn’t been a year where I haven’t been discriminated against. I can understand why severe Tourette’s is hard to wrap your brain around especially when meeting someone new that has Tourette’s. A small percentage of people with Tourette’s has severe Tourette’s so that’d make even more sense for people to not understand. But really people? I’ve been on this campus for years and people need to have more compassion, especially professors and people in leadership positions. Just a reminder Tourette’s is a neurological condition where a person has involuntary physical or vocal “tics” or symptoms such as shouting, screaming, jerking of the head, blinking, etc. It has to do with imbalanced brain chemicals.

I’m not wanting to bash my favorite college. The reason why it’s my favorite is because despite the few people who aren’t as understanding, most professors and students are AMAZING. The community there is close-knitted and most are super kind and nice. It just becomes exhausting and disheartening to fight every year to reserve my right as student.

The first year I was there in 2009, I took a choir class in the winter. Everything was great and dandy until the choir concert date came close. Choir concert is an event where the choir class sings in front of an audience at a theater after a couple months of practicing singing in class. As time gets closer my Tourette’s becomes worse because I get nervous and anxious knowing id be standing in front of an audience. So, a several weeks before the choir concert, my professor came up to me after class asking me if I could not sing with the class because my Tourette’s seems to have worsened. I was heart-broken. At first I agreed because honestly, I didn’t know how to stand up for myself the first year of college. I didn’t know about Americans Disabilities Act of 1990 until high school! I didn’t know my rights as a citizen here despite my disability.

I came home to my family and friends sharing the disheartening story. They told me to talk to her about it because kicking me out of the concert choir is not right. I agreed. I then emailed and talk to the choir professor and she negotiated saying she’d willing to let me stay there for half of the time. I had to talk to my disability center on campus too, but they wanted me to compromise also. My strong-willed sister told me that compromising my rights is a no-no. So eventually I told the professor I wanted to sing for the whole thing with my classmates. She was so angry at me. Long story short, I sang with my concert in the end with very few tics! I wasn’t sure why. I wished that my choir professor was more supportive though. Afterwards, I sent her a Christmas card to see if we can fix the relationship but she wanted nothing to do with me.

Another instance was when I was taking ballet in 2010, but the dance teacher wanted me out. Eventually I just took Jazz dance because students in the ballet class seemed so tense and stuck up. I didn’t like the atmosphere. With jazz dance, I took the same teacher as ballet because she was the only one who taught all the dance classes. She would constantly ask me why my tics are so bad and tell me to keep it under control. The thing about Tourette’s that you should know is that when you tell a person with Tourette’s to stop ticcing or to keep it quiet, they feel the need to tic more no matter how much they suppress it. Suppressing the tics  makes things worse. It’s like if you have the hives and you try not to itch the scratch, you just want to do it more right? The mind of person with Tourettes is interesting. The more you tell them not to do something, the more they’d have to. So, her telling me that didn’t help at all, it backfired. I felt so uncomfortable and stressed in the class all the time. The students were understanding but they had no clue how cruel the dance professor was. She’d pull me aside after class sometimes and always try to talk me out of having tics. That’s impossible! Its equivalent to telling a blind person to stop being blind. I still feel angry thinking about this today because I felt like I allowed her to step all over me and I didn’t stand up for myself enough.

There was another time where I took this Model United Nations class and the professor chose me and four other students to attend a conference in Galapagos Islands. I wrote an essay about why I should be chosen and got picked! But administers at the college campus was afraid of liability and didn’t want me to travel with my professor and classmates. I fought hard for two months to take this trip with my classmates. That’s basically almost an entire quarter! I failed my economics class because of the hardship. I couldn’t focus in my classes because almost every day I spent time emailing, calling, and meeting with the administrators and leaders of the campus to fight for my right to participate.  Eventually, they let me travel to Galapagos. I just had to be persistent. I had a lot of support networks too that helped me through this process. I just wished I applied for a hardship grade during that time instead of letting myself receive a D.

There was a weird situation when I was taking a math class where I agreed to do it via webcam in the library because the professor was pregnant and didn’t want me to scare her to the point of miscarriage, which is pathetic to me when I think about it now (because I’ve been pregnant before and the doctor specifically said my hitting and rough violent tics will not harm the baby throughout the pregnancy soooo why would my sounds cause miscarriage at all?). Honestly, I was naïve during that time and was super considerate to the professor but I believe she just wanted an easy out so she doesn’t have to deal with my tics. It’s not like I’m going to stab her pregnant stomach with a pencil as a tic. They’re just SOUNDS.

Honestly, thinking about it now, some of the people who worked in leadership positions on campus never looked out for my best interest. They looked out for the political interest of everyone. It’s quite sad because you think that’s the whole point of being in a leadership position… to lead and to love.

I’ve learned a lot through these experiences. I don’t want anyone with Tourette’s or any disability to go through what I had to go through, and if they did, they’d knew how to handle the situation. I can’t prevent anyone from being discriminated against but I can offer tools, techniques and knowledge. I hope this post was helpful for anyone who Is a student with Tourette’s or other conditions. Remember, don’t ever compromise your rights and be persistent when fighting for your rights. The world is not going to hand you your rights on a silver plate (unfortunately), you often need to educate yourself and stand up for yourself.


Posted in Medical

Brain Surgery (DBS) Details


Many of my friends and family know this but, I’ve had brain surgery in May 2016 (several months ago) for Tourette’s called Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS). It’s pretty experimental and not approved by the FDA. I was able to fight with insurance and get the $200,000 + covered by my fathers insurance, Regeance. We only paid for $500 at the end.

Honestly I was scared. I did so much research and read academic journals to make a wise choice. I’ve talked to other people with Tourette’s that went through the procedure. I pondered about the idea for the longest time (at least a few years or more). DBS is only for people with severe cases of Tourette’s and who has tried every single medication out there. It’s a last resort thing. And I was the perfect candidate. I have always been resistant toward the idea of getting brain surgery but I got to the point of hopelessness and frustration. I wanted to drive, go to movie theaters, hold a job without having tics hold me back so I took a leap of faith. The reason why I was so hesitant was because my handle who has Parkinson’s (another movement disorder) went through DBS and actually eventually died. His body deteriorated even faster after the surgery. Apparently they took a piece of his brain out I believe. My family was also hesitant and resistant of the idea for a while until my dad and neurologist brought the idea up. I was afraid of complications as death.

According to the graphs given me by New York University medical center (the place where I had my surgery) most people who went through the procedure was a success! And there are only a couple who’s Tourette’s became worse after surgery or didn’t improve at all.

It’s December, almost Christmas and how am I you ask? No improvement yet. They say it takes six months to a year to see results because I need to constantly readjust the voltage with a remote thingy.

What did the surgery entail?

What happened was they placed a few electrodes in my brain including a pacemaker on my abdomen where I charge myself every two weeks. The battery pack is where you can put the remote thingy to adjust the settings. There are different alphabetical groups within the setting that I work with for my brain. Group A, group B, group C, etc. with each  group,  I increase the voltage by .1 every few days to see how it affects my tics. Sometimes I get side affects such as dizziness or anger and rage.
They had to shave my entire head to do the procedure and now there’s a straight scar on my abdomen that goes horizontally.

I also have what I call speed bumps on my head where wires come out of my skull underneath the skin and goes all the way down to my neck, down across my collar bone and chest to my stomach.

I flew to New York a few different times for MRIs, tests, blood work and finally the surgery itself! I stayed there for two weeks for my surgery. It took I think a couple months or so to be fully healed. I was in so much pain, it didn’t hurt my head as much as my abdomen because they sliced across my abdomen to place a battery pack inside. They also stapled my wound sites on my head, so the day where they took out my staples it hurt like hell.

That’s basically my surgery journey so far! If you have any questions feel free to contact me or message below!